so in my mindless blable i was thinking about life and its peace and its crulties and i figured i need stop complaning i have this thing where i hate hate hate that im single but i have deceded not to just date people for the fuck. so here i am friday after calling my boss a stupid fucking asian. i know its mean but he deserved it. i quit, wooo done ,, i will miss being a kitchen manager i love cooking and getting fat doller for it is even better.
So as a swich of subject i also like this guy it seams like he dosnt know i exist,, we walked to town today after school i really dont know if its a i want what i cant have thing cause i really dont knowghahhhhab ahsbguhgehughjf is how i feel about life. i wish growing up wasnt as confusing, like for the past i dont know how many months i was/have been completely charmed by an amazing girl and i will never forget her but i realised were friends and that is all i need her to be, we are true best friends because we share something more than i can explane. i wish we could be together but at the same time guys jsut catch my eye. but i dont look for the hot boys in a crowd i look for my girl. shes what i think about, what i care about. i dont know if she feels the same, i hope she dosnt. if she dosnt then theres a chance of us losing our friendship, i know at some point we;ll fight like most relationships but i dont know if i can lose her in my mind and fuck i wish i would. at this point she feels like my life, we spend most of our spare time together sometimes i wish we didnt cause i know shes going to hurt me but im not gonna let that stop my life.

xoxo for today.