so in my mindless blable i was thinking about life and its peace and its crulties and i figured i need stop complaning i have this thing where i hate hate hate that im single but i have deceded not to just date people for the fuck. so here i am friday after calling my boss a stupid fucking asian. i know its mean but he deserved it. i quit, wooo done ,, i will miss being a kitchen manager i love cooking and getting fat doller for it is even better.
So as a swich of subject i also like this guy it seams like he dosnt know i exist,, we walked to town today after school i really dont know if its a i want what i cant have thing cause i really dont knowghahhhhab ahsbguhgehughjf is how i feel about life. i wish growing up wasnt as confusing, like for the past i dont know how many months i was/have been completely charmed by an amazing girl and i will never forget her but i realised were friends and that is all i need her to be, we are true best friends because we share something more than i can explane. i wish we could be together but at the same time guys jsut catch my eye. but i dont look for the hot boys in a crowd i look for my girl. shes what i think about, what i care about. i dont know if she feels the same, i hope she dosnt. if she dosnt then theres a chance of us losing our friendship, i know at some point we;ll fight like most relationships but i dont know if i can lose her in my mind and fuck i wish i would. at this point she feels like my life, we spend most of our spare time together sometimes i wish we didnt cause i know shes going to hurt me but im not gonna let that stop my life.

xoxo for today.

They say time is fleeting, just a measure, and illusion, a creation of man,
and if we stop too long to ponder the thought we could miss it all together.

We sit together, in thought
dose he still care
dose she still care.
we part
its gone.